There are some people that are special. They just are. They were designed to be exceptional, to impress, to amaze. You know them, maybe you even are them. The ones with so much charisma they could charm a snake or the ones that are so effortlessly intelligent or talented or creative or beautiful or even all these things. Those people that are spectacular.
And then there are people that aren’t spectacular. They aren’t amazing nor impressive but they’re not terrible nor revolting either. They are okay. I know these people, I am these people.
I have made my peace with this. Even though these people are not as visible, they are necessary. If everyone was spectacular then no one would be. To be above average, the average must exist.
Some people will tell you that you can work your way to being exceptional, that exceptional people weren’t “made” exceptional, they became exceptional and maybe these people are right but I am trying my hardest to be more than average in something, anything and I haven’t quite been able to do it yet but perhaps that’s just a me thing and it is possible but I haven’t gotten it right yet. ̶o̶r̶ ̶I̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶’̶t̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̶i̶t̶.̶
I wouldn’t mind being average if I could want average things. The things for average people. The comfortable routines in the comfortable houses with the comfortable jobs in the comfortable offices with the comfortable thoughts around the comfortable people. But I do not have the comfortable thoughts and so the comfortable people are not comfortable around me (nor I them) and the comfortable routines are driving me insane and I am no good at the comfortable jobs in the comfortable offices because my thoughts are not comfortable and the comfortable routines will make me blow my brains out.
I am an average person who wants things for spectacular people and I can’t have them because I am not spectacular so I’m not really average. What I am is something else and I don’t know what that something else is but I do know that I do not want to be whatever it is and I would much rather be average and comfortable.
